Wild Is the Wind (The Long Goodbye)
"Of course. There 's nothing but fiction.
There is nothing else. In here, "and touch '
the chest with a lighter, "there is' nothing.
I've had enough, Marlowe.E 'for a while
that I've had enough. Well ... now it 's perfectly clear I think "
I find myself in a strange day, a situation quite unexpectedly, after a couple of nights of sleep jump. Years were perhaps not walked downtown to the city 'in the morning, remember, the years of the university', the benches in Piazza Santa Caterina, who exchanged notes on those benches, many afternoons, evenings to exchange kisses, dreams recounted, even those confessed. And this strange feeling wearing a cloak of sadness, images that run, a bike in two after an examination before the Marzotto, where and 'who's that guy rode, where and' finished look that thought everything was possible, perhaps I wrong to want to cling to this city, 'city' harsh and inhospitable, tied to this place, tied to the times of the university '. My friends all went out of here, and as the parties' right I do not, perhaps for fear of change, afraid to leave my shell, to see. But the moment will arrive when you are forced to see, you can turn around, you can hide, you can run away at the end comes something that forces you to see inside, to see inside of you quell'inquietante black hole that is devouring your soul. A great love that I have not been able to preserve and care for, a love that 'an integral part of how I, a part of me, a job where I always played on the downside, a mass of talents wasted, left in the cellar. A world view completely 'out', not knowing how to live, because it 's clear that I never learned to do it ...
And this voracious monster inside me, which is not satisfied and that 'hungry for love, affection, he destroys, annihilates me, love is often scary, and' s easier to run away, go away. And these walls of a house that I wanted I are tight, the walls that have not seen what I had, which were witnesses to my madness. The cold I'm wearing, physical malaise, real, the thoughts that run too fast for me, the great illusion that every time I care, that the world is a better place than it really and ', that I in my little I can not make the microcosm .. undisputed, the silences, the unspoken, the inability 'to reverse situations, and' this a bad time ..
"We face ', and through' the room and came out '.
I watched the door close. I listened to his footsteps
moving away from the floor in the corridor in faux marble.
After a few moments became faint and then I heard no more 'anything.
I continued to listen too. For what reason? I wanted
it stopped suddenly, and turn and turn back
talking to me, to rid myself of the bitterness I felt? Well he did not. "
(The Long Goodbye Chandler Raimon)
(Fred Hersch Wild Is AIr ON THE WIND)
One year ago:
I have no words to say to you, not one. I do not know what you rode, but I regret that there is, however cosapevole that only you and only you can understand it. Do not run away from anything and in no way, no lascierai indetro nothing that can not follow you. Build your life brick on brick, certainty of certainty no matter how small it is. Only this I know, only that ... I leave you together, if you do, a hug is that you at least a little 'comfort.
Hey confi read this post I was very sad and meso beginning to make me a pà ² of questions ... The first is: birrino from you tomorrow?!
You know that I am there in every moment that always the case vuoi.Non be hard on yourself, you can pass any difficult moment is not making you even more evil that uscirai.Ti love, a sea of bene.un bacio.LOTTA
I have read and not once and not really know what to tell you. Not knowing any words of mine could not make sense.
Just a hug. This makes sense.
Post a reply to those who do not always dimenticano.Sperando others who are more lightweight, and with diablerà ¬
But I, a stranger, always penetrating
be the most intimate of my life,
I go inside myself searching € ™ s shadow.
F. Pessoa
© because there are days when I read it (even before reading you)
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Already within sà ¨ .. up .. up to break down all of us looking for certainties.
It 'a journey that sometimes scares.
But it is the only really needed.
You know where I am .. you know.
That pain in the chest of our first mail is back and it hurts sometimes because is seems to take it .. just seems hopeless.
I hold you tight as long as you do not end up the music, then I'll wait.
See you soon.
Often .. there is an alignment of the stars of situations, feelings, experiences ..
read again in the words and breaths of another .. and discover that sometimes it is less alone of each ² which is believed ..
C.
Fab ... There 's your smile. And you know what is there in black sea of resignation apparent that seemingly swallows. There 's your live jazz. Look at him. Feel Fab ... I embrace you, because I know what you're talking © not presumption, but to share without pretense.
You feel that you are immense. Take care of your height, even in suffering.
A voyage autour de ma chambre, prologue and epilogue perfect, superb soundtrack, I do not see talent wasted, maybe not sold out, but present, it is worth us a little 'fatigue.
Hello
Toporififi
You know Marlowe, even in these parts is they tasted the bitter taste of defeat, a smell that stays on you like a disease.
Everything hurts of life out here. Friends (which I have around ...), music, sex, nothing makes you less painful existence. So bad that I could not describe what you did as ¬. Yet There 's something left in my soul, a breath of desire that drives us to not look back, to think that in this life, There' s - there has to be - a place, a sense for me.
I want to believe.
Courage.
Hey Fab. Here you would still hear your voice ...
He is sigh ... than my starting from the bottom ... than when I forget to breathe to think better .. "Problems are cà ² mpiti chosen by our soul" ... and I still think that sometimes we are to remember us only when we feel a pain ... we realize we have a hand or arm if we cut ourselves if someone gives us a pinch and need this pain ... I think that life is all a spiral .. sometimes we are given the chance to go through same things but in a different way to have the possibility to change us ... Seize the opportunity ... sit down and breathe .. also remember that at any time you decide to be happy and you can change Either what you have around town, but not because change is because start is to see with different eyes.
I love you
anchovy
these comments are nice, thank you very much, because it 's true love and I need it,
Jazzer thanks, even though we feel short, I know that we are often tuned to similar mood, both musically and personally.
Fight tonight if I can write and speak I owe it to yourself (and the two bottles of wine and we ended the conversation and the music we have heard together), I say no more know how important you
Ruckert, thanks very much for all
Diamonds come hopefully post more 'light.
Rakele know that I love Pessoa ...
UPI, and talk to you 'is always a nice thing, what you can not give you' a common thing, to listen unconditionally, even if sometimes you do not let him talk, maybe I'm biased on some things, you know what you want well
Light, we read many of my concerns in your current post, in your words, and it 's true that others read through similar problems, resizes in a sense their feelings
Arabian, you know we have much in common, very feeling and very experienced, I embrace you with didi
Auranoir, thanks, I know infinitely sorry that we did not cross this summer, but it'll play 'in Perugia again soon and I hope this time to meet and drink together
toporififi, you know the fatigue limits of my being a non-constant, we'll try '..
Aldebaran, the acrid smell of defeat, your comment struck me particularly, I had heard from your family members share feelings, like pain, gives me courage that I've read, 'felt real experienced the smell of pure genuine sentiment, spontaneous. You also know I have just a breath now, which causes me to look ahead and seek a sense, even if quotidinamente things happen in my life that make me difficult to understand what my feeling, the tears which these days I find it hard to control, 'cause I can not get more' to see and understand what could be the way. How true and beautiful things you say, everything amplifies some feelings, music, sex, love, and nothing can ease the suffering "to eternal de desventura live" seems like Jobim. At times like this when I'm tired, discouraged, 'cause I made the effort this year and' was huge, maybe I asked too much of myself, going out, live, fight through life, be spontaneous, immediate, not mediate feelings ever with the brain, the price I pay now, I opened my arms too much without thinking what they are, one of our mutual friend wrote me some time ago and 'what is and' I do not I have accepted I believed to be anything else, I lived as if there were within me that damned fragility ', the sensitivity' exaggerated, which amplifies the sensations, the beautiful and the ugly ... thanks again Aldebaran, your words are important.
And again to all who have commented on this release, this pain, every word of these comments for me and 'was important, the true affection that I felt unable to give me the courage to go forward with open arms
Will leave this time, you have all the resources inside of you (because you are not happy is to love and you're greedy).
A belated embrace.
Piazza Santa Caterina, Marzotto, the university and marlowe, we have many things in common, including the state of mind (in these regions): I am sure that day will come more peaceful for you (which you must be very young) and Me. And 'the beginning of the fall which immaliconisce ...
resist resist resist
(To exist, exist, exist!)
I really ... modesty and respect for certain things, I leave you a hug ...
PS
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I do not think you learn ...
ah, but for those things in the basement .... Tirale out
and hugs are two vÃ!
And this morning .. good morning!
It .. 's true I wish that you were useful also my lips, but is still only now or always of ears, you know that those are there for you.
I'm leaving here two lines of Merini is because while I was reading this morning, I thought ..
"Jet cardboard cores,
sound for soldiers of paper,
now they are all deadly
and I have given a thousand songs. "
Appearance and would like for you .. the day after that.
... Seek and learn to recognize who and what in the middle of hell, is not hell, then make them endure, give them space.
(I.Calvino)
This was already a way to escape.
a way to have a world to our measure ..
and f
How many words of wisdom and advice kisses
what to say ...
perhaps it is much easier to live and praise the pain that having the strength and courage to seek a delicate balance and laugh and thank is only because we have a great chance to tell us about it
maybe you should just start living Either what you more than trying Either what you do not have the courage to see perhaps.
a kiss
alma
And 'cut-and-paste of an old post:
From the advertising of the film: "The Safety of Objects":
The secret is knowing not to take Either what you did but know how to let go Either what you have already lost.
I do not know if it is relevant, I do not know if it can make you a comforting or depressing effect, is still one of the little things that we should strive to learn.
A hug
gypsy
that music can lighten your heart, tickle your thoughts, and repeat the time does not exist, time does not exist ...
Fly, fly more
I read and I am reminded of a piece to dedicate Aires Tango ... "The friend of Cordoba" for me, music is worth a thousand words .... a hug from cordoba
archer
you know the news?
http://www.kwmusica.kataweb.it/kwmusica/pp_scheda.jsp?idContent=124056&idCategory=2028
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Has passed?
I read your post and I tried to write something ... but everything that I write seem trivial. Percia ² I just want to manifest my love and my understanding with these simple lines.
a hug
@ Alice is aware of what you say, my eyes would see the same things in any place, and 'real need to work on the perception that one has of things, otherwise you run the risk of escape to infinity without resolving anything, the things that Captain we have reason may hide signs, cues to grasp, they are also aware of this, the fact remains that it 'difficult when you are' overwhelmed. Oh I forgot you are not green
A kiss
@ Simple, I know it Came ', my fear and' time and how
@ Pip, not 'the fall, indeed, for me this time and' always been a good time
@ Charliebrown and maybe we broke the boxes to resist, resist ... we would not exist without
@ Hobbs, we will see that you can 'do to the wine cellar ...
@ Bfu, thank you, even if sometimes I'm not good to hear :-)
@ F, and 'this thing real, often our hell could be softened, but we can not do that, we can not resist and to save those things that are not in our life hell and not' a good feeling to realize
@ Alma, um, I do not know, the courage to live what you have ... I do not like this thing, it contains a germ of resignation, I will not resign, I want to try and understand even if it is painful, oh and there ' no exaltation of pain ... in fact
@ Gypsy also very true this thing, and 'difficult to accept the end of something, difficult to know how to let go of people who love each other for their own good and for our ..
@ Charm there is no time, there is no time eh I repeat, we hope this mantra to work, I try I try to charm a Greeting
@ Archer, I know that piece, I find it akin akin :-)
@ Rakele thanks for the warning, I did not know of publication of this material ... ah always Ana carolina and OT 'very very good
@ Albaviola, have long processes, and do not know if 'past, but the antibodies react and it' a good sign
@ Gulliverian thank you hug to you too
good day!
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ok, forgive me, now I have read and understand a little bit. I can not say much, if not give you a hug!
@ Freesia forgive you ... what ... hello :-)
@ Rakele is very good indeed, an amazing voice very characteristic and unique version of the Gypsy I'm not exalted, too pop-rock for my taste, but his voice was incredible, I want to hear anything about her
Greetings
Confi Hello!
I've mixed a cold ........... Cattttttttiiiiiiiiiiivo!, As is gone? I hope everything ok .. I'm always with my nose (runny) in the Thesis, sigh.
A basin bacilloso and good week! FIGHT
for what I have written by Dawn! But ... anything goes, right? one must simply wait. (My mom that discounted sentences!) O_o
Lottaaaaaaa cabbage I'm sorry that I have spent the ravvreddore etciuuuuuuuu dept as I do forgive ... seratina from me again soon to listen to music and drink wine? Concert when you delivered the thesis?
A kiss
@ Freesia ... you had not written anything wrong, there was indeed a vein noir
Everything changes, we are never the same, and around us change and 'settled in the same way, so everything goes certainly not even need to wait, every moment we are a little different, the emotions are never the same, the pain does not changes remains unchanged, what troubles me, and 'feel the change, perceiving that he's digging valleys and where he wants to divert the course of my soul, I try to resist but do not know if I'm strong enough.
A hug
a "change" will not drift ever the course of your soul, I think you figured ... sometimes you just afraid of the reactive strength you have inside. overcome a block does not mean forgetting © nà not hold more than anyone or anything.
and now I want to reiterate it here for the weekend, we ..., ... z! In short caspiterina no gift at all these things ¬ my pearls of wisdom!
Not 'change to pervert the course, but the pain, er I do not know what I'm afraid ...
Fortunately not all gifts ste pearls of wisdom .... zo ... :-) I'll put him 'in large letters hanging on the door of my house, lighthouse' a marble slab in my input codesta illuminating pearls of wisdom .... zo!
no use hanging out at home or homes. is "inside"! and ari ... zo! kisses kisses kisses
I can not wait!
FIGHT
Just for the "who preaches well Razzola evil" is ... just because you do not need to change the city to see the world differently, but just change your eyes ... why is there suffering like tops and take us anywhere else throw (which sometimes is a "elsewhere" in) ... TATATATAAAANNN: I HAVE JUST BOUGHT A ROUND TRIP FLIGHT TO PARIS AT THE END OF THE MONTH!! .... I already feel better now.
Q What do you say I want a loft ... green?
kisses
anchovy
ps
I'm so scared
Alice, already 'but sometimes there are opportunities for the eyes' to be seized and look, you do well to go to Paris and try the loft and find a place to express the music inside you. I'm really glad you had the courage to buy that ticket, fear is part of the price ...
A big kiss
Q
At the beginning of winter, you look into them ... and not 'a good time for me, but I know it will pass,' will 'the same for you too ...